Wednesday, 12 October 2016



Monday, 10 October 2016


I'm grateful to have sailed through my first day back at work after a week of hospitalisation leave. I'm grateful that my new manager is a friend who has returned to Google. I'm grateful I don't have to deal so much with my bully ex-manager anymore!  

Sunday, 9 October 2016


Today, I learned to play a new board game called Deception: Murder in Hong Kong. I'm grateful that I spent a day laughing and relaxing with friends. 

Saturday, 8 October 2016

Gratitude + Ballet

I'm grateful that I caught a Suzhou ballet performance at one of my favourite places in the world, The Esplanade. Oh, I have missed the arts so much! The simple costumes with clean lines and muted tones with appropriate accents (at times, muted is almost naked!), the graceful lean prima ballerina, the majestic painted stage backdrop and the beautiful legend of Xi Shi. It's the annual Dans Festival soon, so I'll be sure to be catching more dance performances! 

Friday, 7 October 2016


I'm grateful that Ian was visiting from Dubai on business and managed to visit me during my hospital stay to say hi. I'm grateful that I had lovely ice cream pancakes today. And I'm grateful I'll be discharged tomorrow! :)

Tuesday, 4 October 2016

World Ballet Day

Happy World Ballet Day! I cannot wait for the live videos from top ballet companies across the globe.

And to relive the wonderful 2015 archive, we have...





Monday, 3 October 2016


Today's gratitude post is an open letter to a man I used to love and continue to have strong feelings for, albeit different kinds of feelings now.

Dear MM,

As I was lying on the operating bed today for the same procedure which I did 5 years ago, thoughts of you came flooding uncontrollably.

For one, you broke up with me the day of my surgery 5 years ago. You were not apologetic. My heartache took a longer time to recover than my surgery wounds.

Last Summer, we got back together unexpectedly. Despite knowing that your love is like a burst of fireworks (it burns brightly but fizzles out quickly), I fell in love with you without care and consideration. I thought if we are given a second chance, we should make the most of it. I was looking forward to you making good on the the promises you made and the future we said we'll build.

As the Chinese saying goes, 计划赶不上变化 (loosely translated to The plans cannot keep up with the changes). Our paths separated with bad choices that brought upon undesirable consequences.

While I was reflecting, yet again, while my doctor prodded me, all memories came flooding back - the good, bad and ugly.

Let's go conquer the world together! And so we met in Belgium, Poland, Germany, Dominican Republic, Singapore, Italy, UK, Hong Kong, Japan and Kyrgyzstan where we laughed, ate, and danced to our hearts' delight. The good times always bring smiles in the darkest of hours.

I have always maintained that I'm afraid of pregnancy. Seeing my friends go through the experience makes me happy but scared at the same time. Instead of asking "What can I do to make you feel supported and less afraid of pregnancy?", you said, "You don't want kids and I want kids".

You slept with so many women and was even sleeping with others days before and after we go our separate ways on multiple occasions. You said, "I miss you and cannot stop thinking of you". You said, "I do not like that you are with another man". Yet, you feel like it's your prerogative to enjoy the comfort of many women since we are not in a committed relationship.

Instead of working through the issues we have, you said, "Being together is not the right thing anymore" because I don't fit into your plans.

You had 100 reasons why you loved me. A whole hundred. Yet, not a single one mattered.

While drowning in my own thoughts, there was a moment which I was holding my breath and my heartbeat dropped, causing a brief moment of alarm throughout the operating theater. "Breathe, Wynnii. Take deep breaths", my doctor said gently.

So as I was lying on the operating bed, my tears fell because of how uncomfortable the procedure was, and also, because of the cessation of my feelings for you.

I have come to accept that you won't be the generous, selfless, supportive, positive, respectful and understanding man I want to be with.

You must have your side of the story. I hope you are able to see mine through my lens, and hopefully aspire to become a better person. No, you are not a good person, and you just don't realise it yet.

So today, I am grateful that I am finally able to see you clearly for the person you are.

And I am grateful that I have gathered courage to move on. :)

Sunday, 2 October 2016


To end the week, I am grateful that I went on a pleasant date today. I was supposed to just do a coffee with him but it ended up to be a 2.5 hour conversation. I am grateful I got to watch half of the Man United-Stoke City match, which sadly ended with a 1-1 score. I am grateful the week has been awesome and I am in a happy mood for my surgery tomorrow. 

Friday, 30 September 2016


On this Friday, I am grateful for having a great time at my internal Google chat. I could have done a lot better but I gave it my best shot. I am grateful Ellie organised a Bridget Jones' movie marathon and a group of ladies caught the first and second movies at her place. We laughed non-stop and it was such a great Friday evening. I am grateful that I got to enjoy bubble tea and ice cream today. I am grateful that my good friends, Faz and Tasha, brought me on a Pokemon hunt today and I caught four new Pokemon! I cannot wait for the weekend to start! :)

Happy Birthday, Google!

Happy 18th birthday, Google! 

Thursday, 29 September 2016

Daily Gratitude

I'm grateful for being able to practise for my chat with a Googler tomorrow with tips and support from people who care. I'm grateful I managed to catch the 6pm bus despite leaving the office at 557pm. I'm grateful a friend, Benson, reached out to arrange for coffee on Saturday. I'm grateful I didn't miss MM today. I'm grateful I finished watching the first presidential debate and saw Hilary crushed Trump. I'm grateful I was able to reschedule dinner with Jacinta. I'm grateful a childhood friend, Wenxiu, reached out and wanted to catch up. I'm grateful I showed patience with the bully manager today.

Wednesday, 28 September 2016

Daily Gratitude

I'm grateful to be able to catch up with Jacqueline and Kelvin over dinner and drinks today. I'm grateful I enjoyed two glasses of wiskey green tea which I have not had for a long time. I'm grateful they ordered Argentinian wine during dinner. I'm grateful they invited me over to their place dinner on Sat. I'm grateful we made plans to go clubbing on Sat. I'm grateful Saturday will be a fun day!